Beta Fairy

Congratulations to everyone who ever doubted me, Because there were mirrors all around me, And I finally realized that I’m trash. I tried so many things so many times, And so, I thought I was a rockstar, But now I realize the world does not see me like that, It only sees that I tried and tried and never won, It sees me as a failure, And now I know that I am one. Before, I used to think that no one sees my value, Now I know that I have no value. I tried so hard to not lose my confidence, But the world thrives on me losing it, And so now I have none. I gave everything and everyone my all, But I still never got any appreciation even the size of a ball. The poor don’t like me, neither do the rich, The old don’t like me, neither do the young, The ugly don’t like me, neither do the beautiful, Before, I used to think this is because I am in the middle, But now I know this is because I’m way behind both, Now I know I’m trash.

I am almost going to finish '2 broke girls' on amazon prime video and i found like so many similarities between Caroline Channing and me such as: - My family lost their riches (during the India-Pakistan partition) and her family lost their riches in a scam her father committed - I too like to stay positive in negative situations - I also want to stay celibate - I was also flat chested for quite a few years - I am also a talker - People find me annoying too - I also like to talk about myself a lot - I too want to build my own business - I also am a romantic

Spent the evening on a beach, He had his eyes on my peach. Next day morning, thought he'd talk to me But he talks to you and I feel free - Free to go and be me. But he doesn't want to set me free. I'm stuck in his web of lies, And just when I think no one hears my cries, I feel the almighty by my side, And I stride with precision and pride, Towards a direction that changes our tide.

 I see the eagles that fly so high in the sky, And the parrots that can't fly that high. The Kingfisher that sits on a terrace, And the pigeons who think they are in a race. I see the crows cawing, And how they all bring life to my drawing.

I loved you to bits and pieces, But you valued me as much as you'd value human feces. I could accept it though, All I wanted was for you to leave me the fuck alone, bro. But you couldn't do that, could you? You thought I was a voodoo- Doll Who would be available at your beck and call. Guess what? I'm not that, And neither am I a pussy cat Who is scared to do tit-for-tat.

When you take something that's not yours, You have to pay the price. When you pour yourself into something that's not yours, You are telling yourself lies. No - they won't want you, Cos they don't want themself too, No - they will never be yours, Cos you are meant for the stars, And they are meant for the tars. They are just a scar, Cos they were never on par With your vision, They were just there to destroy your mission.