Beta Fairy

I was nothing but kind - Gave you a space in my heart, in my mind. But I was only good enough for your fun, Not good enough for you to introduce me to your mum?

Congratulations to everyone who ever doubted me, Because there were mirrors all around me, And I finally realized that I’m trash. I tried so many things so many times, And so, I thought I was a rockstar, But now I realize the world does not see me like that, It only sees that I tried and tried and never won, It sees me as a failure, And now I know that I am one. Before, I used to think that no one sees my value, Now I know that I have no value. I tried so hard to not lose my confidence, But the world thrives on me losing it, And so now I have none. I gave everything and everyone my all, But I still never got any appreciation even the size of a ball. The poor don’t like me, neither do the rich, The old don’t like me, neither do the young, The ugly don’t like me, neither do the beautiful, Before, I used to think this is because I am in the middle, But now I know this is because I’m way behind both, Now I know I’m trash.

I am almost going to finish '2 broke girls' on amazon prime video and i found like so many similarities between Caroline Channing and me such as: - My family lost their riches (during the India-Pakistan partition) and her family lost their riches in a scam her father committed - I too like to stay positive in negative situations - I also want to stay celibate - I was also flat chested for quite a few years - I am also a talker - People find me annoying too - I also like to talk about myself a lot - I too want to build my own business - I also am a romantic

Spent the evening on a beach, He had his eyes on my peach. Next day morning, thought he'd talk to me But he talks to you and I feel free - Free to go and be me. But he doesn't want to set me free. I'm stuck in his web of lies, And just when I think no one hears my cries, I feel the almighty by my side, And I stride with precision and pride, Towards a direction that changes our tide.

 I see the eagles that fly so high in the sky, And the parrots that can't fly that high. The Kingfisher that sits on a terrace, And the pigeons who think they are in a race. I see the crows cawing, And how they all bring life to my drawing.

I loved you to bits and pieces, But you valued me as much as you'd value human feces. I could accept it though, All I wanted was for you to leave me the fuck alone, bro. But you couldn't do that, could you? You thought I was a voodoo- Doll Who would be available at your beck and call. Guess what? I'm not that, And neither am I a pussy cat Who is scared to do tit-for-tat.

When you take something that's not yours, You have to pay the price. When you pour yourself into something that's not yours, You are telling yourself lies. No - they won't want you, Cos they don't want themself too, No - they will never be yours, Cos you are meant for the stars, And they are meant for the tars. They are just a scar, Cos they were never on par With your vision, They were just there to destroy your mission.