Beta Fairy

What's daunting Is I don't know what I'm missing I don't know what I'm wanting And it's really really haunting. If I just had a path I could take Or a decision I could make I wouldn't bake Myself into this messy cake. If I could just find my one true calling My experience won't be that appalling. I don't know what to do, I don't know where to go. Just like how Cinderella lost her shoe, I have lost myself too.

I feel excluded Like as though no one wants me to be included I feel like an outsider There is this invisible border Which separates me from those around me No one wants me No one likes me Everyone hates me Am I that un-interesting? Or am I just plain boring? Have I done something wrong? Why don't I belong? Why can't people accept me? Why can't they see the good in me? Or am I just that bad? Can they see that they make me sad? I used to think I'm dope But I have lost all hope. Is there any place in this world Where people are not this cold? Is there anyone in this big cruel world Whose heart is made of gold? Am I just invisible Or are these people trying to see if I am invincible? Sometimes I let it go But sometimes - no It hurts to see that you would speak to him and her  But never to me even though I am right here.  But I can't sulk And I cannot carry this bulk. So I cry and forget.

The tiger wants to eat me And beat me And heat me And defeat me. But I am going to correct And resurrect And perfect  And manifest.

I looked and looked In every nook, But I could not find the crook Who had stolen my book. I couldn't continue to write my story, I was in fury Because I was stuck in a state of frenzy  And my story was getting clumsy.

Kakada Ramprasad Restaurant So I have eaten the chaat items and sweets from Kakada before but this was my first time eating at the restaurant. We ordered several breads like butter naan, pudina paratha, aloo paratha, etc. And we ordered malai broccoli, crispy corn and gobi manchurian dry for starters. For the main course we ordered schezwan noodles and cheese malai kofta. For dessert, we ordered sizzling chocolate brownie and malai lassi. For soup we ordered tomato soup. We were a party of five people. The quantity was sufficient and the quality of the food was good too. I did not taste the malai lassi, pudina paratha and tomato soup, so cannot comment on them. I was not a fan of the malai brocoli but maybe that is because I don't like broccoli. I loved the schezwan noodles, crispy corn and gobi manchurian. The sizzling chocolate brownie was good too. The aloo paratha came with dhal and it was average. The naan was okay too. The cheese malai kofta had no cheese. Overall I would rec...

Twisted Love by Ana Huang I am reading this book on Audible and I am going to complete it. The book has 44 Chapters and I am on Chapter 43. The book is about Ava and Alex who fall in love but their dark pasts get in the way. Both of them have deep childhood trauma that haunts them till today and when they finally meet they discover truths which had been buried for years. I am also liking the other characters in the book such as Ava's friends - Stella, Bridgette, Jules and Ava's brother - Josh, etc. I found some parts of the book to be predictable though and so I might end up giving this book a 3/5 stars, not sure though since I am rooting for the ending to surprise me. Below Zero by Ali Hazelwood I am reading this book in paperback and I actually am liking this novella more than its predecessors - 'Stuck with you' & 'Under One Roof'. I think I like this one more because the main character Hannah is so much more relatable and realistic. She is not this perfec...